This is a letter I wrote to Ellen requesting to perform on her show.
Ellen I am a man of many dreams. In fact, some have called me Mr. Daydreamer. The dreaming is where the creativity is born, where the magic lives. It is in the action that I sometimes feel blocked. I recently tuned into your show and saw Lewis Howes relating his dream and instantly made a connection. It inspired me to tell you my story.
Let me begin at the beginning. I was given up for adoption at 7 days old. No matter how wonderful and loving my adopted parents were which I am sincerely grateful for, I never felt I truly belonged, which seems to be a common emotion for adopted children. I searched for a place to call my own, where I fit in.
I thought I had found a piece of the puzzle in my first marriage. I now had a family with 2 children of my own blood. Unfortunately the marriage ended in divorce which was overwhelming enough. Then a few years later and another child, I found myself going through a second divorce sheeesh! Totally devastated and feeling demoralized I began to think that I didn’t want to go on.
I was desperate. Thank God for my children and the rest of my family for it was through their support that gave me the time to find myself again. They helped me understand that I had gifts that I needed to share. I picked up my guitar and began to write through my pain, not from a “poor me” perspective, but from a “how can I make this situation right again.” MUSIC SAVED MY LIFE!
I started to have dreams again. Big Dreams! I thought what better place to record these song(s) I had just written than Abbey Road – Studio 2 where my musical influences, the Beatles recorded many years ago. My intention was to inspire others to fulfill their dreams by accomplishing mine. Hence our project named “It’s Never Too Late To Live Your Dreams”
The Universe provides and in walks a producer who lived in my little home town in Napanee, Ontario who had recorded with Billy Preston, the Bee Gees and Eric Clapton. Well you could have knocked me for a loop. He loved my music and wanted to record it in England with his band.
We set out to raise funds through a Kickstarter campaign and in addition, enroll a film company to document our journey. We produced a home music video “Dreams Come True” as a trailer to promote our project. We enrolled the help of some local filmmakers, friends and town folk who got behind the project and donated their time. Unfortunately it wasn’t enough we not only didn’t get the funding needed from Kickstarter we were also turned down by the film company for the reason that “I was not well known enough”. I was challenged at this point to continue. If not for the unwavering support of my wife Leslie I may not have. We knew then we had a choice to make, and that meant to use my pension in order to fund the trip and subsequent album. At 57 I was terrified thinking of doing such a thing considering we may never see that money again. It was a major leap of faith.
And then another challenge. After returning from England I recognized that my vision for my music, this album, was very different than that of my producer. This created an unfortunate falling out with him. The result was a parting of ways and so too the connection and experience he brought. My confidence waned. With a half completed album and knowing I would have to dip into my pension some more to finish the project, it all seemed daunting. Then through an unexpected turn of events I was introduced to another local music producer who gave up a lot of time and energy to help me finish the album aptly named “People Don’t Grow on Trees”. I am so grateful to you Aaron. We have an album that we can be very proud of!
MY NEXT BIG DREAM!
I wrote a special song for our trip to Abbey Road called “Share”, recorded with some very special family and friends. We documented this amazing day with another music video (see link).
I have always envisioned performing “Share” on the Ellen Show with all the people who have helped me along the way who I would like to repay in some way. I believe dreams are meant to be shared and what better way than with Ellen who shares so much with so many. You are a true inspiration!
I just want to finish by saying, that what I’ve learned most through this journey, is that it isn’t so much about the music. It’s more about the human connection and kindness of others and how they helped me accomplish a dream.
“To dream alone is just a dream, to dream together is reality” John Lennon.
The Dreams Continue, 11:11. Thanks for listening.